Its Completion!

I can say now
that i can live
Although life couldn't give me
what it shoud give
But now i just have no regrets
No sorries,no lookbacks and no complicated threads
My life is now a night after rain
Not dark,not miserable
But its as fresh as a morning
as new as a dawn
and it smells as good as earth does after rain
And now that i've forgotten all the pain
It's not an end
But a completion

Now I can sleep
with hope for sweet dreams
I've forgotten everything hurting with you like a nightmare
Moreover i've been smiling for an year
I might have become unwelcoming to love
But yeah! I'm so welcoming life
I'm not crying anymore
See my eyes are dry
I really don't cry for the miserable times with you
Instead i relish and cherish all those sweet moments my life painted with you
I genuinly am happy now
I really got no frustration
I can go to bed for my final sleep
and i know its not end
Instead its completion...

A letter to "HIM"

Are you really there?
Do you really exist?
I'm trying to find you in the dark and through this mist
Even if you do,would you still care to feel
I don't even know if you are real
But can it be possible that somehow you know
You understood my heart and you are aware of all my horrors
The fears that are haunting me since i opned my eyes in the morning
But now that its getting dark and hey,i'm still looking for the answers
I cant stop listening to these voices echoing in my head
they tell me i need to run from this unknown strange world before i'm dead


But whom i'm telling all this?
Are you really upthere somewhere?
'Cuz all i can see is this endless sky with no star for me
Do i even exist for you?
Have i made any Journey?
'Cuz now i have walked enough
and i'm about to fade
and i hope you show me the way,i really can't see anymore
and now that its hurting even more than before
My path is about to end but i dont remember if i made any mark for you?
would you able to find me,i really got no clue...
But hell,i still don't know if you even give a damn to care
Who knows if You are even there?

Escaping.....

Escaping...
It never is easy
With the heavy burden of my deeds
I am still walking
I am still smiling
I'm talking
But no one knows that inside I'm burning
Deteriorating with my desires
Longings that i had
Dreams that got thrashed
I dont have any past to look back into and cherish for
My present is always chasing me like a devil hounding for a life
And the future is waiting next door with a razor sharp knife
Even the tears have left my eyes
'Cuz my body has dried up
and my gulit keeps on building like an over-filling cup
I'm always running from the shadows that i see
Even the pills that i took dont seem to work
So i cant go to sleep
I put on a face
Put on a face that gets me through the day
But damn,the night falls again
and every single thing gets repeated
I'm lost,i'm empty and i'm defeated
and ESCAPING...
It would never be EASY....

Sumone from the past

He was angry
and he was crying,
He couldn't smile
though he was trying.

I watched him
and asked out of curiosity
"What's hurting you?"
and then there was a silence for eternity...

Then he looked at me and said
"Whats the use?u also not gonna understand!"

But I understood and somehow I knew
like a part of me was going through a Deja vu.

He did not tell a word
but as if I've seen the whole story
I wanted to help but hell,I'm sorry

'Cuz now I've become a hypocrite
Now I'm just a shell
so I'm hiding the feeling
I so wanted to tell

I wanted to hold his hand
I wanted to hug him
to show that I cared
to tell that it's gonna be fine

So just to show a little sympathy
Thats all could I've done
I went nearer
to have a look clearer
All I found that
It was nothing but my 13'year old mirror...