Fear and convenience

     

You call it love.

But it’s clear, it isn’t one.

Fueled by the concoction of this thick syrupy melancholy

Which I drink like poison today.

I see things much clearer now.

You say you are suffocating,

And I can’t find no peace.

Drifting into insanity,

I feel things much nearer now.

You’re mixing things up,

Love and emotions

With fear and convenience.

Singing lies and lullabies,

Are you sleeping in the nights?

Because honey it’s 2 A.M.

And you’re talking to your friends.

And moving to a foreign country.

Choosing a life of misery,

Putting words in my mouth.

So, you tell them to yourself

And comfort your sullen conscience.

Are you sleeping in the nights?

Are you suffocated enough?

With this thing you call love.

Fear and convenience,

You mix in your coffee

As I drink my whiskey

And try to forget it.

Here in my room...

Will you stay with me, here in my room?

You hadn’t seen it before

Because I was ashamed

But now I don’t care.

Do you accept my flaws

Here in my room?

For my shoulders hurt

With the ache of carrying lies on my back.
 

It wasn’t as you expected,

My humble modest room.

But here is where I belong

And where I will turn to dust just as I rose.

 

Will you let me sing

And end the silence of my room?

For the quiet shouts louder

and I can use some sound

 

Well I hope you can take

My reality in my room.

I am done pretending

And stand naked with crumbled walls.

I ran

I ran.

Like I always have.

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I don’t remember if you were with me or not,

I don’t know if it was morning or the dark,

I just ran and ran too far,

Till it all started to disappear in the past.

 

Driven by the hate with nowhere to turn,

I felt the burn, the warmth and the sun.

 

To taste the poison,

I never had to go too far.

Indulged in your temptation,

I sail on a sinking ark.

 

Till we drown in passion

And forget the truth.

What’s real and what’s a dream,

Blurred lines conceal.

 

At the edge of our memories,

We may find each other again.

In desperation and contempt,

We may excite each other again.

 

But the time is not now,

Not tomorrow, nor soon.

Because now I’ve come too far,

Troubled and desolate.

 I run.

Away from it all.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ignorance, yours.

And I hear my heart

Explode silently.

Oblivion is the fate of my love,

Ignorance, yours.

And I cry out my nights

While my soul mourns desperately.

Despair is what I deserve,

Ignorance, you.

And I try to live today

Where I’d die every moment inside.

Agony is what I preserve,

Ignorance, you.

For the love so pure, so evil.

Evil is what I add,

Purity, you.

Unholy

Your lips follow the horizon

But I end on the sidelines.

Falling under the gravity,

Succumbing to the carnality.

I breathe a little more

To engulf your light

And I burn a little inside.

Burning my darkness,

My darkness that I hide.

Unfinished and growing,

Ravaging and unsettling,

Consumed in its passion,

Swirling into the heights,

In this unholy union;

You ravage my dark

And I, your light.

Till we exhale in desperation.

And when,

Once it’s all settled down

And resilient in calmness

It starts again…

The Hate poem

I fell in hate for you.
So sweet and strong,
a pure emotion.
Building up for long,
drowned in its passion,
How I hate you so much.
So full of disgust,
just can't get enough.
Pure devotion,
can melt a stone.
Filled with suffocation,
always keeps me alone.
But darling, there's nothing that I can do,
because I fell in hate for you.
So sweet and strong,
and never ungone...

Serve thy Servants

Hail thy glory!

Lie, shine of which in

Us, losing our story…

Breathing in your aura,

Used to the comfort of shadows.

Sun, lost and long gone…

Hollow fillers,

 Filling the company thy require

Long live the need!

Soaking and sinking,

Ice in our veins.

Leaving us in sleep forever,

Picture perfect, may your dreams be!

Whisper the words of freedom,

Imprisoned, bound

Allured by your halo

Fallen grace

Of a guardian angel, we find.

Shine on!

Live on!

Oh holy majesty

Serve thy servants.