Escaping.....

Escaping...
It never is easy
With the heavy burden of my deeds
I am still walking
I am still smiling
I'm talking
But no one knows that inside I'm burning
Deteriorating with my desires
Longings that i had
Dreams that got thrashed
I dont have any past to look back into and cherish for
My present is always chasing me like a devil hounding for a life
And the future is waiting next door with a razor sharp knife
Even the tears have left my eyes
'Cuz my body has dried up
and my gulit keeps on building like an over-filling cup
I'm always running from the shadows that i see
Even the pills that i took dont seem to work
So i cant go to sleep
I put on a face
Put on a face that gets me through the day
But damn,the night falls again
and every single thing gets repeated
I'm lost,i'm empty and i'm defeated
and ESCAPING...
It would never be EASY....

Sumone from the past

He was angry
and he was crying,
He couldn't smile
though he was trying.

I watched him
and asked out of curiosity
"What's hurting you?"
and then there was a silence for eternity...

Then he looked at me and said
"Whats the use?u also not gonna understand!"

But I understood and somehow I knew
like a part of me was going through a Deja vu.

He did not tell a word
but as if I've seen the whole story
I wanted to help but hell,I'm sorry

'Cuz now I've become a hypocrite
Now I'm just a shell
so I'm hiding the feeling
I so wanted to tell

I wanted to hold his hand
I wanted to hug him
to show that I cared
to tell that it's gonna be fine

So just to show a little sympathy
Thats all could I've done
I went nearer
to have a look clearer
All I found that
It was nothing but my 13'year old mirror...