Stronging Deception

Stop looking at me
and afterall what you are looking at
shut those wide opened eyes
or your eyeballs will pop out
and why you are looking at me anyway?
Aint i just an another face lost in the crowd?
or my deception has started to fail
my mask is stripping off
and my put-on face has started to fade?
Have i started to show my reality?
Just stop watching my every move
Don't you see i'm trying to dissolve in the sea of stereotype
I know i don't fit in
But i'm trying to hide
Dont judge me
Dont have an opinion for me
Dont even think of me
consider me to be invisible
If you will see deeply
I wont be able to hide my weaknesses
I wont be able to hide my ugliness
My skin will tear off
and you won't be able to handle the reality...

You are still here...here with me

I close my eyes
it takes me back
Takes me back to the season of sunshine
when you were here with me
It was so perfect
sunrising at the back
orange skies
sunflower field
Birds and butterflies

I can almost smell the fragrance
it lingers on me
the touch of your skin
The sparkle in your eyes
the silk of your hair
your words like a sweet red wine for my ears

Now that you are gone
you are only gone for them
for me,I still have held you tight in me
in the curls of my bed
in the light of the candle
in the sound of my music
in the tears of my eyes
They tell me to move on
Move on from whom?
you still are here
lying so near
I have locked you in my arms
I still remeber how it feels
I still know the taste of your lips
see even time couldnot rob me of this
And they tell me to move on
Move on from whom?
'cuz whenever I close my eyes
It takes me back to that season of sunshine...

Slow Poison

Time goes on as it never stops
But it does not go alone
Along with it take all the fragrance from the flowers
and all the shine from the dying stars that once so strongly shone
Its a slow poison that venomizes everything
Like its killing her
Bereaving her of everything she has
Her spark in her eyes
her charismatic voice
her strength
her life

But i cant see this slow asasination
She's growing old
Her skin is wrinkling
Her knees are aching
I can just watch her getting more and more helpless
more and more dependent
Though she hides her pain very well with a smile
Even i get hallucinated for a while
But she cant betray her child for long
I know she's weakening though she's showing strong

I know her pain
I feel her strain
I see time eating her
She's fading
she's ending
she's is degrading
and i never felt this helpless before time
and neither i can see it anymore
Wish i could just stop it before...
Before it gets too late
Too late for her to hold back her pain
and fall to pieces
and time still goes on
as it never gonna stop